anxious

last tuesday, we had our routine OB check up (before, it was a monthly thing. it's every two weeks now that i'm in my 8th month). and the OB said i can give birth na by 9 aug at the earliest. whaaaaatt?? it has not dawned on me yet that, yes, malapit naaaaa!!! but i am excited as well, so we were talking and laughing with dr. A all throughout the check up. i need to behave daw kasi wala sya between 10-16 july and walang magpapaanak sakin haha! sayang naman kasi we were planning to watch varekai with friends on the 12th. pass muna ako huhu

that night, k told me i was acting a bit bothered after the clinic visit. we were watching tv but i wasn't really paying attention. then he started asking, "are you worried about the labor and delivery?" "are you scared of going to the hospital" etc. etc. i said no, not really. but deep inside i was feeling scared na to give birth! i don't feel i'm 100% ready yet!

then the tears started to fall. i guess all my fears came to the surface. k hugged me and assured me everything's going to be fine. that he'll be there every step of the way. and that once baby kr's out, we will have a good laugh about all my worries. and then he started cracking jokes na (wag ka matakot manganak. matakot ka pag di ka manganak. kawawa naman si baby!) i'm still scared, but knowing that k's around, we can do this!!!

k, thank you. i love you so much more each passing day. baby kr and i are so lucky to have you. :)



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